Jumping off a cliff. Some people apparently do this for sport (my brother), but I generally think of it as a dangerous activity to be avoided at all costs. Yet that was exactly how I felt about starting this blog a few weeks ago. Today, though, I am writing on my blog. So, what happened in between to make me decide to jump? I had a revelation about risk.
Risk generally does not thrill me; it scares me. As I thought through the possibility of creating my own space on the interwebs, my risk-o-meter was sounding off loudly. What if my car dies the day after I sign up and pay for web hosting? What if no one ever reads my blog? What if I realize that I suck at writing? What if I get bored with it, give up, and let all the money go to waste?
The fact that all these fears could be answered rationally (i.e. that’s what the car replacement fund is for, I wanted to blog for self-expression, see previous-it doesn’t matter and I probably don’t, I have a pretty good work ethic and it isn’t a waste to try something new) didn’t seem to make a difference to me at the time. I was trying to convince myself that trying and failing was worth it and better than never trying, but it wasn’t going very well. I was making a sport out of the world’s best breakfast food and I wanted to stop. I wanted to sit down and jump off this cliff…or not. Closure, where are you??
I was sitting at a friend’s house babysitting, researching blogging, listening to one of my currently favorite albums, and was suddenly hit with an undeniable truth: The biggest thing I need to worry about has already been taken care of. I think it was the Christocentric-ness of the hymn lyrics that made me realize that nothing for me is really a big risk anymore. Although there are lots of things I could (and do) worry about, my biggest problem-SIN-has been cleared away. Thanks to Jesus’ sacrifice on my behalf, my eternal state is secure.
This is highlighted in the entire chapter of Romans 8, especially verse 32 which states, “He who did not spare His own Son but gave Him up for us all, how will He not also with Him graciously give us all things?” The risks of starting up a blog are dust compared to danger of dying without Jesus as my Lord and Savior. That realization brought such clarity to my thought processes. It helped me to think of my situation and blogging decision in a more accurate light. Stepping back and looking at things from an eternal perspective always does that.
The next day, Definitely Curious was born. And the rest…will be history!
How do you handle risk?